A beautiful story :)

She lives her life just as she found it while he lives it without the fear of losing it. They crossed path sometime in 2003 in a University where they studied college. She didn't quite liked him at first because he always tease him and pull her pony tail from her newly fixed hair every time. Days went by and she already get used to it, 2004 came and early on that year her father died. Little did she know that his dad died when he was 2 or 3 until he began to open his life to her. The story has been told again .. and again .. and again. Since then, her view of him deepen. There's something about this man that is so special that draws her closer to him, in her heart she wants to show him how beautiful life is no matter what the circumstances are and there are far more important things to treasure than a stick of cigar which he values the most at that time. 


Days, weeks, months and years gone by what happened to thee?' she only remember the good things they've shared. Sometime over the years when he would catch a firefly to keep her from crying or make fun of himself even in public just so she would laugh., when one morning in the mountain after he climb up to the peak he brought down a flower for her. Remembering moments when he  was at her side the entire time when her mom whom he loves and loves him so dearly was sent to the hospital a couple of times. It is but a sweet memory to remember moments when they walk on the streets of some places and he hides from her (but not when it's dark) He never lose his patience towards her in her most bratty acts (not even once). He manage to even embrace the moods of her mom and sisters, she smiles. He has always been there ... he never left. 


It is a wonder when on the very first time that she met his family, they seem to be so knowledgeable about her that they know even her most embarrassing moments ... instantly she felt close and accepted by them. Their love made her love him all the more. 


Countless memories of both sorrow and joy were shared ..she can't help but smile every time she remembers them. But as they go older it can be that they have chosen to live different lives away from each other or yet live with someone else. No matter how perfect the picture can be.  It just wouldn't fit in to the frame of being together forever. 


Maybe they are the perfect two as most people sees it but there are things that just can't be. They may not end up together but she was told that he will remain to be her one great love. He may have loved another woman but she knows that he loves her more than anyone else. It's a special kind of love that he cannot share with anybody else. 


She may have cried a bucket of tears but her heart is not filled with regrets, she hopes the best of joy in the world for him as he hopes likewise for her. Roads may have to lead elsewhere somehow for a time but later in HIS rightful place and time they will see each other on the crossroads. :)

I don’t know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you’re not scared of anything at all
Don’t know if Snow White’s house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

Thank you for reading.

Dear Boss: I QUIT!!!

I LEAVE IT TO YOU

Things are so frustrating and I am hurting to bits. What good is it to fight when you know you'll end up losing? it's like joining a game when you don't know the mechanics or joining a singing contest without a good piece. So I stare at the wall and tried to fill my mind with happy thoughts. It didn't quite work this time, thank God for mama. She talked to me tonight and tell me things that I needed to hear. This is what she said ...

"it doesnt mean youre giving up the battle, ang ibig sabihin lng who will take over"

What mama meant is ... sometimes we also have to quit to win, the battle is not ours to fight alone but His. We have a part to play in every battle and once it's done it's HIS turn to be GOD.  


All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the LORD saves; for the battle is the LORD’s, and he will give all of you into our hands.” 1 Samuel 17 :47         
                                                                                                                
Therefore, not everyone who QUITS loses. Sometimes it only shows a picture of  absolute surrender when things are beyond our  control.

The Captain

So I am holding back my tears coz I am in a net cafe and i don't find it cool to show off tears in places like this until I got myself to this photo that made me hold back laughter instead. I can't say much about it except that the skinny and the most untidy person that I came to know for about 8years now can look better than Sam Milby on this photo., so just see for yourself.

This man has been a pain on my butt since the time I know him but well somehow I am on him too. I can't help now but to think of the times when I am at my lowest point and he's there .. even to this time that he no longer own his time. He still manage to make me feel that he cares and steal some time to see me. He is usually not there at the leap of all my joys but never did he fail to be there when I need him. He never promised to always be there, but what he does to me amounts more than all his broken promises. 

Jigouy, I salute you for you. Do whatever, just don't die in the battlefield as you just told me that you are not trained to die. I'm proud of you .,a soldier an actor :)) 

Facebook post: on Monday, 03 October 2011 at 23:27

Season of Loneliness

by Joyieness Valenz on Wednesday, 28 September 2011 at 23:56

It's been 2weeks and 1 1/2 hours after my life has turned to the other end. Surprisingly, I somehow felt at peace and more than that I felt happy today. I'm still borken .. but slowly' the broken pieces are putting themselves back together to make me whole.

I have learned a lot and it's super cool how the learnings branch out to more learnings. There are three important lessons that I want to share with you tonight, aside from the other ones that maybe I can also share with you sometime soon.

1. Comfort Zone is dangerous - like Job, I am certain that the evil is jealous that God has been faithful in providing not only my needs but my wants as well. I have all the comforts of life a young lady like me could ever asked for, but you know .. after the theft, EVERYTHING has been taken away, not even a home is left for me. So for 2weeks now, everyday when I wake up I am not sure as to where to lay my head. But I praise God still because when He took away my comfort .. He made Himself known to me all the more. I don't mean that God is hesistant to give us comfort in the end He returned everything and even more to Job. So I am excited. :)

2. Humility to its roots - I admire Jesus, He is King but He humbled Himself for the sake of us sinners. The other day, it is so humbling to go to a computer shop or even borrow a cousins laptop just so I can talk to my mama when for the last years I own a laptop and had my wifi connection even at home. These days, I only stayed with relatives and friends and you know how it goes when it's not your own when for the last years I do what I want at home, laze around and just do whatever .. now it shouldn't be.

3. ........ - i dont know how to call it, but one of the most important lesson that I learned is that you have to independently live your own life somehow. That you cannot always depend on people to do things for you nor to always come available when you need them. We don't own all the problems in the world and as I have said before, we are all given equal shares of it. Moreover, when we learn to live happily on our own .. people will only come as a bonus to live a happier / better life.

*I am enjoying this season and I hope that in whatever season God has placed you today, you will also learn to hear what He wants You to grasp and enjoy it the same way I do. Be excited, life is good. Live it.

Apir!!!

Heart is Home

by Joyieness Valenz on Saturday, 24 September 2011 at 23:28

Steve Jobs once said in his message for the graduat'ing students of Staford University that Sometimes life is gonna hit you in the head with a brick .. don't lose faith.

Today, I come across a Facebook post that break my heart entirely to think that even in trouble times like this .. there will be people who are not considerate enough to even understand. Moreover, they will add up to your bearings and cause your heart to bleed all the more.And on the side, forgiveness always comes available.  It's sad, but God clearly said in His word ....

Isaiah 41:10 
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

In all gratitude, I sincerely thank the people who welcomed me in their homes and showed me their utmost love. Tita Eva, thank you for standing by me all throughout from taking my call that night to staying by my side during and after the investigation and until walking with me under the rain helping me to look for a new place to stay. It would've been harder without you. Tita Gay, for giving me the best comfort I could ever get and for staying up late just to wait for me to come home. For the sweet talks and good laughs amidst these trials I sincerely appreciate you. Ina, you are such a blessing, thank you for standing with me for 3days of PNF, for all the encouragements. For making me see that life is still beautiful and for the cool treat when I ran out of cash. I love you.Marvin and Kat , it's so sweet of you to sleep on the floor while I sleep on your bed. Marvin, for going out of your way that night to be where I am and Kat for stealing time in the office to contact me and for making room for me not only in your closet but in your private room as well .. I need less to say that you are the truest friends a catcat can have. Dyok, thank you for going out of your way to see me despite your lack in available time and for loving me sincerely. Jigs, I am never wrong to think that no matter how difficult life will be .. you will always be there for me. Seasons of life come and go but you stayed the same. Ma,Dee,Ate,Tricia,Sarah and Gina ., i love you with all my heart. I am no 7y.o. I will make it through. :)

For the rest of the people who gave me the tightest hugs you all know who you are. My dearest lolo and lola, I will always be okay. Much loves.  For my relatives - family for helping me sort my stuffs and all. Tita Jaque&Ryck for welcoming me in your house at any time. Ate Joy P.,for the most relaxing night, I appreciate the tea that you made for me, for the movie and all that. To the Batiancela - Fajardo family, to my victory family, C.A.Mak, my kids parents for the comfort and even for offering me your homes. My kids, who never fail to make teacher laugh ..  I am one blessed young lady :)

It's hard to accept that I no longer have my own home when everyone else has but when I saw an old lady sleeping on a street side I praised God for this life blow for it made me see how blessed I am. I learned that God will cause people to experience hardships to fullfill His purpose at any time at any season, no matter where you are or who you're with. And it is true that He will even use a massive of people for the sake of one. Right now, I am learning the hard way but in time I will only look back to this and smile. I don't have a home at this time but I reside in the heart of God and in the hearts of the people who love me so dearly.

Celebrate life, victory is possible :)

it's tiring .. but imma make it :)