On Habagat

This entry is written last Tuesday (August 7,2012) however, I did not find it helpful to post at that time so I had to save it for today.

As I sat on this comfy bed, leaning against a strong wall with the AC on and a good internet connection I can’t help but thank God for putting me in such a place of comfort while a lot of my countrymen are suffering from the flood that the tropical depression has caused our nation. Please don’t get me wrong God definitely love every human being He created and He doesn’t play favourites. I think that for whatever kind of situation He allowed us to be in He is whispering something in our ear.

 The bible says in Genesis 2:15 “The Lord God took the man and put him in the garden of Eden to work it and TAKE CARE of it” I am not protesting against anyone here, I only wish to remind ourselves that even in the simplest thing that we ought to know by “common sense” God is kind enough to still instruct us to take care of what He created for you and me. But what do we do? “sigh”

I bluntly uttered my inmost annotation as I watch the television with one of my favorite Kuyas this morning saying “tayo ren naman ang may gawa nito, tapos kasi tayo nang tapon kung saan saan lang” and this is what he says “hindi lang naman ikaw ang matinong nakakaisip nyan, kaya lang mas maraming mahirap kesa mayaman” I pause for sometime and ponder on what he meant when he say the latter then I realized the fact that there are more people who doesn’t live in a decent place where there will be garbage collectors to collect their trash and send it to the proper dump site so yes my kuya definitely made a point there and I admire him for having such witty thought. 

We all have our own set of lame excuses whenever things drifts away from what should be especially when the aftermath is unbearable. Remember that the little things can do so much; you may be one concerned citizen to keep that trash in your pocket till you come across a trash bin and my challenge to you is to do it still. 

“He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers” Psalm 1:3 We can still do something .. so LET US. May God above bless the works of your hand.

Here comes the rain again

This entry is inspired by the sudden rain fall today, last night my grandmother told me that the temperature today will rise to 37 .. now that's extreme humidity to expect right? yet today .. at this very hour I feel cold and it lead me to take the quilt I got from the captain who left today for call of duty. I miss him already. :( Rain seems to cry with me, this is so melancholic. I want to head home and curl up on my bed.

Sentiments of walking away

I am suppose to be finishing exams that are due TODAY but I find myself unhappy thinking about the paper that I signed and submitted earlier today. My hand literally shake as my manager hand me the pen saying "wala ka pang pirma" in my heart .. I wish I wouldn't have to do it but circumstances and long term goals require me to do so.

For 2 years, I am grateful to always have a reason to smile and even laugh even at the worst days of my life. To receive tight hugs and sweetest kisses that overflows every single day. When I feel unloved, I think about them and then I will go back to the certainty that I am truly loved. But more than the joy and comfort that they give me, I thank God that He cause my life to home them in school for a period of time. Like in a book, one chapter awaits after the other. These little ones will always own a place in my heart and no one can take that away. I'll be back. They will be under His care and i won't need to worry about who will handle them after me and then I too will be just fine. :)

Found love :)

So February is about to end in a day but my tale about finding the truth behind LOVE continues until the day comes. I am in awe how my Maker is able to birth in me a new heart. One this is completely whole .. leaving no trace of brokeness. I am sharing my heart out hoping that I won't sound too idealistic or religous as I may be. 

It was a happy day when an incident that happened in a train station pushed me to shed off a layer and be open to change. Like visiting my gym for the first weeks, things were plainly painful and odd. But as I continue on with the things that I should do ... I see better results. Trust me, I am making sense here' hahaha!!! Seriously, healing a broken heart is the hardest especially when you have to deal with it yourself not because no one is willing to help but because the battle is within you, within you, within you. Call me whatever but the struggle went on for more than a couple of years .. WHY? because I choose to be in it. It's that simple, no one else to blame :) 

The Impossible

I have given it my all and unfuel myself until the last drop, will I ever fall inlove again if I give up on this? But hey in the first place .. was there ever us? tears fall. Isaac was born when Abraham was on his hundreth year while Sarah is way behind her child-bearing years. How impossible then it is for the LOVE to create in me a new heart? :)

The Rescue

I was told many times in those long years to flee off or I will be swept away but my ears are too deaf to hear. Lot in the event when God is about to destroy the city is even hesitant to obey but still He has shown an in depth Love for them when He sent his angels to drag them out of the city before He reigned down the burning sulfur. I am so precious to be burned am I? :)

The Challenge

Already willing and acting upon every given task so well when sweeping and peeling off another layer took place. There I was standing with no confidence at all. The King is enthralled by your beauty, honor Him for He is your lord. Quoting from Psalm 45:11. By the beach I have gone through this passage and in my heart I gained peace. He had made the vast of the ocean so beautiful, why wouldn't He make me His heir more beautiful than that? :)

Unveiling the beauty

God put Adam to sleep when He created Eve. One of the reason I believe behind it was it could be very painful for Adam to be awake as God will take off a rib out of him and another was maybe God doesn't think it is likely for Adam to see how messy the creation of Eve will be ( I mean there's blood and everything ). In my mind, why didn't God just created Eve the same way He created Adam? Oh well, that is another thing to ponder on but for now I will rest on the truth that woman are not wired to show ultimate vulnerability to a man until such time when she is already made whole. Leaving a whole bunch of things for that man to search the heart of the LOVE before he find mine. :)

The Cure

I found LOVE. I learned about LOVE. And I fall deeply in love with the first and the last LOVE. At one point, this LOVE showed me a picture of what transpired .. had me face a mirror to see the present and lastly gave me a glimpse of what could it be in the future. In quietness and trust .. I held the hand of LOVE and obeyed. 

Thank you for reading :)

Bawal ang nakasimangot

Nakakatuwa .. matagal tagal din akong walang blog ah. Kamusta na? ayos pa ba .. cool ka lang kase sa kabila nang lahat nang pangit na pangyayari sa paligid meron pa ring maganda tayong makikita kung lubusan lang nating bubuksan ang ating mga mata. 

Masaya ako, at sa sobrang saya ko' napapatagalog ako para masaya lang .. para kakaiba naman. Hindi naman iba sa akin ang maging masaya.,masayahin naman akong sadya pero iba ito. Lubos yung ligaya na nararamdaman ko sa puso ko.,para akong bagong kasal sa sobrang ligaya. Hindi pa ako nakasal, pero naka witness na ako ng kasal na batid ko kung paano ginawa .. kaya ayon parang alam ko lang ang pakiramdam at siguro ganito yung klase ng saya na nadama nila at maaring higit pa. 

 

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko masambit ng sakto kung baket ako masaya ... pero ito kase yung klase ng ligaya na kahit naranasan kong simangutan at hindi kausapin ng maayos ngayong araw ay nagawa ko pa reng ngumiti at piliing mahalin yung taong nagsungit sa akin. Inisip ko na lang na marahil, kailangan nya lang nang pang unawa. :) 

Pinaalala saken ni Lord yung Proverbs 15:1, sabe nya dun na "a gentle answer turns away wrath but a harsh words stirs up anger" .... lahat naman tayo ay tao lang. At kahit gaano pa tayong kabait ay  dadating ang mga araw na mabubugnot tayo, pero isang bagay pa ang natutunan ko na sa bawat aksyon na gagawen natin may kaakibat itong epekto sa tao na nakakita o nakarinig sayo. Pwede kang pumikit at mag buntong hininga hangga't kaya, pero kung hindi naman .. edi sige magalit ka' mainis ka o kaya magsungit ka gusto mo yan e. Ang tanong ko lang eh .. ipagpapalit mo ba ang isang relasyon sa isang sandaling hindi mo na control ang iyong emosyon?' sayang naman. Pero hindi bale .,wag ka pa ren mag alala kasi depende pa ren naman sa tao kung paano nya tatanggapin ang mga pangyayare sa paligid nya. :)

Ang likot ng isip ko. Basta ngiti ka lang.,wag natin sayangin ang pagkakataon na makapag bigay buhay dahil nagbigay ka ng ngiti at nagsalita ng maayos. Gusto kong balikan yung PAG - IBIG., punuin natin nito ang puso natin' si Jesus ang tinutukoy ko. MAgugulat ka na lang ... kumikinang ka na. :)