Found love :)

So February is about to end in a day but my tale about finding the truth behind LOVE continues until the day comes. I am in awe how my Maker is able to birth in me a new heart. One this is completely whole .. leaving no trace of brokeness. I am sharing my heart out hoping that I won't sound too idealistic or religous as I may be. 

It was a happy day when an incident that happened in a train station pushed me to shed off a layer and be open to change. Like visiting my gym for the first weeks, things were plainly painful and odd. But as I continue on with the things that I should do ... I see better results. Trust me, I am making sense here' hahaha!!! Seriously, healing a broken heart is the hardest especially when you have to deal with it yourself not because no one is willing to help but because the battle is within you, within you, within you. Call me whatever but the struggle went on for more than a couple of years .. WHY? because I choose to be in it. It's that simple, no one else to blame :) 

The Impossible

I have given it my all and unfuel myself until the last drop, will I ever fall inlove again if I give up on this? But hey in the first place .. was there ever us? tears fall. Isaac was born when Abraham was on his hundreth year while Sarah is way behind her child-bearing years. How impossible then it is for the LOVE to create in me a new heart? :)

The Rescue

I was told many times in those long years to flee off or I will be swept away but my ears are too deaf to hear. Lot in the event when God is about to destroy the city is even hesitant to obey but still He has shown an in depth Love for them when He sent his angels to drag them out of the city before He reigned down the burning sulfur. I am so precious to be burned am I? :)

The Challenge

Already willing and acting upon every given task so well when sweeping and peeling off another layer took place. There I was standing with no confidence at all. The King is enthralled by your beauty, honor Him for He is your lord. Quoting from Psalm 45:11. By the beach I have gone through this passage and in my heart I gained peace. He had made the vast of the ocean so beautiful, why wouldn't He make me His heir more beautiful than that? :)

Unveiling the beauty

God put Adam to sleep when He created Eve. One of the reason I believe behind it was it could be very painful for Adam to be awake as God will take off a rib out of him and another was maybe God doesn't think it is likely for Adam to see how messy the creation of Eve will be ( I mean there's blood and everything ). In my mind, why didn't God just created Eve the same way He created Adam? Oh well, that is another thing to ponder on but for now I will rest on the truth that woman are not wired to show ultimate vulnerability to a man until such time when she is already made whole. Leaving a whole bunch of things for that man to search the heart of the LOVE before he find mine. :)

The Cure

I found LOVE. I learned about LOVE. And I fall deeply in love with the first and the last LOVE. At one point, this LOVE showed me a picture of what transpired .. had me face a mirror to see the present and lastly gave me a glimpse of what could it be in the future. In quietness and trust .. I held the hand of LOVE and obeyed. 

Thank you for reading :)

Bawal ang nakasimangot

Nakakatuwa .. matagal tagal din akong walang blog ah. Kamusta na? ayos pa ba .. cool ka lang kase sa kabila nang lahat nang pangit na pangyayari sa paligid meron pa ring maganda tayong makikita kung lubusan lang nating bubuksan ang ating mga mata. 

Masaya ako, at sa sobrang saya ko' napapatagalog ako para masaya lang .. para kakaiba naman. Hindi naman iba sa akin ang maging masaya.,masayahin naman akong sadya pero iba ito. Lubos yung ligaya na nararamdaman ko sa puso ko.,para akong bagong kasal sa sobrang ligaya. Hindi pa ako nakasal, pero naka witness na ako ng kasal na batid ko kung paano ginawa .. kaya ayon parang alam ko lang ang pakiramdam at siguro ganito yung klase ng saya na nadama nila at maaring higit pa. 

 

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko masambit ng sakto kung baket ako masaya ... pero ito kase yung klase ng ligaya na kahit naranasan kong simangutan at hindi kausapin ng maayos ngayong araw ay nagawa ko pa reng ngumiti at piliing mahalin yung taong nagsungit sa akin. Inisip ko na lang na marahil, kailangan nya lang nang pang unawa. :) 

Pinaalala saken ni Lord yung Proverbs 15:1, sabe nya dun na "a gentle answer turns away wrath but a harsh words stirs up anger" .... lahat naman tayo ay tao lang. At kahit gaano pa tayong kabait ay  dadating ang mga araw na mabubugnot tayo, pero isang bagay pa ang natutunan ko na sa bawat aksyon na gagawen natin may kaakibat itong epekto sa tao na nakakita o nakarinig sayo. Pwede kang pumikit at mag buntong hininga hangga't kaya, pero kung hindi naman .. edi sige magalit ka' mainis ka o kaya magsungit ka gusto mo yan e. Ang tanong ko lang eh .. ipagpapalit mo ba ang isang relasyon sa isang sandaling hindi mo na control ang iyong emosyon?' sayang naman. Pero hindi bale .,wag ka pa ren mag alala kasi depende pa ren naman sa tao kung paano nya tatanggapin ang mga pangyayare sa paligid nya. :)

Ang likot ng isip ko. Basta ngiti ka lang.,wag natin sayangin ang pagkakataon na makapag bigay buhay dahil nagbigay ka ng ngiti at nagsalita ng maayos. Gusto kong balikan yung PAG - IBIG., punuin natin nito ang puso natin' si Jesus ang tinutukoy ko. MAgugulat ka na lang ... kumikinang ka na. :)